His consuming fire

The love of your heart is like a consuming fire. There is no place that I can go to escape the beauty of your flame, There is no place I can hide to escape the light that shines from you. My heart is overwelmed bye the intensity of the heat of your love. I am left facedown at your feet in worship everytime I get a glimps of your love for me!  Everyday I ask that ur love will grow that your fire will consume my life. I ask that my body will be fuel for your fire. As I give you my heart and my soul. that the fire within me will be uncontanable,that nothing will burn brighter than my life for you.  May your fire be the reason for my actions, may your fire be the words that come out of my mouth. I ask that your love, that your grace,  and your peace will burn within my heart daily that I may show this world who you really are, That I may be the man that you created  me to be. May I be the man that stokesthe fire within me daily in worship praise and longing to see your face.  I want to leave nothing behind of my self but leave everything for you to do what you need to do! That is my hearts desire that is my hearts cry. Now take my life and consume it with your love. Consume me with your holy fire! 

with the nails that u bore,
with the grace that u gave,
all my fears swept away,
all the tears wiped away,
so here i am to praise,
the only one that gave.

This is my life and the reason i do what i do!

This is my life and this is the reason I do what I do.

Let me tell u a bit about myself i'm 20 years old work as a carpenter for a company called Yakka build. My average working week is around 60 hours if not more! Probably living with the best housemates that i could of ever asked for, just around the corner of my amazing church, hillsong. i have been a Christian my whole life but only really got serious with my walk with God about three Years ago. And started to give Him everything. I have a beautiful family consisting of three brothers and two sisters. Both my oldest brother and my oldest sister are married to wonderful spouses and share two amazing kids each. They seriously bring a massive smile to my face! Both these families are in church and following God! My other sister has and will always hold a special place in my heart I love her so much! She is currently not in church but I know that there is a fire that is burning inside her that she can only ignore for so long. I believe for her salvation everyday and will continue to till I see her in the house of God! That leaves the other two brothers ones older and ones younger than me, the older one is the reason that I am the man of God that I am today. I'll get back to him later. My younger bro is a pretty cool mate, although we don't get on the best he knows that I love him. He has slowly walked away from the whole church seen over the past couple of years but he knows God well so it's only time till he comes back to the kingdom of God. lets not forget the main reason that im on this earth, that would be my mum and my dad, no words can describe the feelings that i have for them. both in love with God as much as they are with each other, both amazing parents, they are indescribable and i love them with all my heart. well thats my family as you can see its massive and fun and also challenging at some points but i wouldn't have it any other way.

Growing up was pretty easy, i mean i had a family that loved me, i went to a christian school, had a solid relationship with God and had some great christian mates, so yeah it was easy but that all changed in about year ten. one sunday morning my brother came home from work with tears in his eyes, that day my life was turned around but the decisions that i made that day are the reason that i am who i am. that sunday morning i was shattered with the news that my rdg leader had passed away whilst swimming at the beach. jeremy wong was his name, he was more than just a leader he was more like an older brother to me. at the time he was a uni student and i had left school to purse my career in carpentry. both of us had many days that we weren't doing anything so we always chilled together on our days off. he was the first man that ever believed in me ,outside of my family. he wanted to see Gods full potential released within me and wanted the very best for me. the amount of talks and God encounters that we had in that little toyota was unbelievable, so me and him were very close. so that sunday morning broke my heart. he had drowned at the beach and i remember feeling so angry at myself for not being there on that beach for him when he needed me the most, the anger that i couldn't do anything to bring him back burned at my very soul. i remember siting there weeping my insides yelling at God saying how could you let this happen, i was a wreck in the arms of my mum and dad and my older brother i couldn't even hold my own weight but they held me when i needed them the most. that morning the last thing i wanted to do was to go to church, i was so mad and angry at God that i would off walked away that morning and never looked back, but thats when my mum, dad and brother pretty much carried me to the car. i remember standing up the back of church with tears streaming down my face uncontrollably. that sunday morning right there and then i made a choice , that choice was to give everything to God, as hard as it was i raised my hands and gave him everything. thats when He came down and met me i remember that my tears turned from tears of anger and hurt to tears of love and tears of grace as Gods arms wrapped around my broken body.


life went on it was hard at first feeling confused and lost with were i was ment to be heading in life the only thing that was consistent was church life. after Jeremy's death i guess rdg was a struggle i didn't really get too involved worried that i would get hurt again. a year went on and i was still looking for a job as an apprentice carpenter but nothing was coming up so i guess i was doubting wether carpentry was the right thing to be doing but i stuck at it giving it to God. rdg was going alright, i was eager to be fed more and to grow more in God but wasn't really getting challenged enough compared to before. thats when i was thrown in the deep end by my tribal leader he wanted me to be an rdg leader a year early which was crazy. he had seen the way i handelled jeremys death and he could see the eagerness that i had to grow with God so he too me to the next step. so i accepted the challenge and stepped forth. the first year was hard i had finally got a job and was leading a very small rdg, lets say that i was doing a pretty bad job at leading, not making time for my boys cause of work, struggling to do rdg at all, cause i was to tired from work and all those excuses. as time went on i got better with it all and i was finally starting to get my head around leading young people. i guess life was pretty good.

it wasn't until my brother left for canada that i really decided to take my relationship with God to the next level. what brought that change was something that i wasn't really expecting. my brother had fallen away from God and had started to do the whole party thing over in canada. this broke my heart cause it was the same brother that i had been through so much together with the whole jeremy thing and just the last couple of years at church. he was my mentor and my leader and to see him fall into the hands of the devil so easily broke my heart once again. from that day forward i made a new commitment to God and that was that i will never fall away from his loving arms and that i would be the man of God that would lead my sister and my brothers back into his hands. from that day i dug deep into God in a new whole way i decided that i would be the hands and feet of my God and that i would place my self so deep inside his presence that no one could break the bond that i had with Him. i started to help out and serve with everything i had. God opened doors left right and Centre and i stepped into each one of them knowing that i was in his will ,and through his strength i could do anything. everything in my life showed Jesus and still does, it didn't matter if i was at home, at work or at church the lord was evident in everything i did.

to this day im still believing to see my brothers and sister back in the house of God and believe that it is Gods will for there life. but now i sit here as a 20 year old man that is fully content in who he is, who has so much vision for his life that i can barely contain the excitement of it all. i sit here knowing who i am in God and knowing what i can do through His name. i am sold out for only one thing and that is to see the lost come home. i will follow my God to the ends of the earth and to my death. really im just a boy caught up in the arms of a loving saviour and not afraid to let the world know about it!

Beautiful lord by Leeland

When the storm is raging all around me
You are the peace that calms
My troubled sea
And when the cares of this world
Darken my day
You are the light that shines
And shows me the way

Oh, the beauty of Your majesty
On the cross You showed Your love for me!

Beautiful Lord
Awesome and mighty
I'm captured by this love I see
Beautiful Lord
Tender and holy
Your mercy brings me to my knees
It's Your mercy that has made me free
Beautiful Lord

When my sin is all that I can see
Your grace remains the shelter that I seek
And when my weakness is all I can give
Your gentle Spirit gives me strength again
And oh, the beauty of Your majesty
On the cross You showed Your love for me

And I am lifted by Your love to sing!
It's Your mercy that has made me free!

You're beautiful, my Lord
You're beautiful, my Lord

I am yours

How will I describe u with words my beautiful king, When the very words that come out of my mouth were breathed into existance by you. How will i show my burning love for you when you will always love me more. There's only one thing that I can do, only one thing that will show you my heart. That one thing is to lay myself down at your majestic feet and say I am yours. To offer my life just like you offered yours. To give you, every single breath and every little heartbeat! I am yours forever and ever!      

You found us

You long for us when we are walking down the street of pain and hurt, your heart breaks in out darkest moments , your hand reaches for us when it's just not worth holding on, your love found us so that we can be joyful and know who we are in you, your grace found us so that we may live a life of worth and value, you found us so that we will always be loved as your preciouse sons and daughters. Your blood was spilt so we may spend the rest of our days with you! 
You are the king of all kings, lord of all lords and u found us! 
 

Going through the motions

As the days go on and the weeks go past, its so easy to fall into the motions. its so easy to do day by day, doing the usual, waking up in the morning to go to work, to come home to do what you do that night that you do everyweek, to race home so you can get as much sleep as possible to do it all tomorrow. its so easy to live life in the motions.

My biggest fear is that my life will be a life that is to busy or too worried about the way its gonna turn out that i will be living in the motions of this world and not seeing the people of this world the way they should be seen. tell me this if im living in the motions will i notice the man on the side of the street begging so that he can feed himself for the night. will i see the single mum struggling with the shopping as her child screams. will i see the teenager boy thats walking down the street towards a broken home his heart crying out. its so easy to walk bye in a rush cause your day has already been planned out. its so easy to say that someone else will meet that need. its so easy not even to notice cause were so enveloped in the motions of this world

my challenge to you and to my self is.... how easy is it to stop and help... how easy is it to hand that man a bit of food so he doesn't have to sleep hungry again, how easy is it to help that lady with her shopping so she can look after her child, how easy is it to say hi to that boy who is waiting for exactly that. are we to busy not to see the needs of this world are we stuck in the motions??

LET IT BE THAT
My hands be your hands
My feet be your feet
My eyes be your eyes
My mind be your mind
My days be your days
My love be your love
My heart be your heart
My life be your life
FOR I AM YOURS

Who am I ?

let there not be a day that goes past in this world that i do not exalt you for the saviour king that you are. for it is you that came down to this earth, for it is you that took up the cross and it was you that sacrificed your life so that i might gain one. your blood was shed for me as they wiped you over and over again. your tears fell for me as they nailed your hands to that cross. with every hit, with every whip, my face flashes into your mind. who am i, that deserves this amazing grace, who am i, that your love coves me. who am i that i may walk with you by my side. i am no one to this world, but to you i am everything. i stumble and i fall but your mighty hand always catches me. i do not deserve this at all, yet you have offered it freely. who am i that i can stand here and know that you hold my world in your hands. who am i that your mercy saved me. who am i ??

I am a man that has been saved by grace and mercy. i am a son of the most amazing father that ever walked this earth, i am a history maker that wont stop till the fathers work has been done. i have been redeemed by the cross, were his blood was spilt, i have been set free by the farther. i run with not my own feet but the feet of my fathers. my race has been set, my goal is far, my pace is quick. my rock is his word, my sins are washed away, my will is his will, my love is his love, my eyes are his eyes. i am a son of the one and only living god and i will not stop, i will not cease and i will not slow until his will has been done on this earth.

I AM YOUR SON,BENJAMIN HARWOOD ROMBOUTS

Your love catches me, Your heart burns for me , Your grace covers me!

He knows every heartache, sees every tear, a word from His lips can calm every fear.

life

Today I find myself once again staring at the awesome sunrise that you have created and I am reminded of how great and majestic you are! Every little thing in this earth has been put in place by your mighty hands. I look down and I see a blade of grass swaying in the wind it looks in place and I think of how caring you are to the small details of every thing in this world. I look up and I see waves hitting the rocks of the headland, water spraying up into the air with such force, through this I see how mighty and strong you are. I look up into the sky and my eyes are blessed with an indescribable scene, your sunrise, so many colors coming together to make a beautiful scene. When I see this I think of how majestic and beautiful you are. I look straight ahead and I see the sun, so big and so bright that my eyes struggle to stay focused on its powerful light but for some reason I am drawn to its beauty. Then it strikes me that I must be the same as the sun a powerful light that no one can escape, the light of Jesus Christ! I look to my left and then to my right and I see your sons and your daughters lost to the things of this world and I pray and I fall to your mighty feet and ask you, break my heart like you have never every done before. Break it so bad that it hurts so much that I cant and will not be able to walk away from your lost and hurting sons and daughters without telling them of the most beautiful and loving savior that u are. I come to you as a man who is weak and pathetic but am a man who knows that his short comings in life are met with the grace of his savior, and through this I can be more than a conquer in everything that this world throws at me. I think of the love that u have for me and am struck by it cause it will go to the ends of the world but will also be so interment that I can be loved as your own son. Through that love I can come to you with anything and know that this love will cover all my shame, sadness and guilt. Every day I pray that u would remind me why I am on this earth and why I choose to walk in the things that you have giving to me. Lord you are everything to me and I am honored to be in the army of the lord fighting so that the lost may come home!

I am yours

My hands will do your crafts, my feet will run your race, for I know that it's not my own will that i seek, but the will of an amazing Father that will keep me running with purpose until The very day that I meet him face to face! For my father is the
one and only Jesus Christ!

You are everything!

legacy

Tonight I find my self standing on the grave of one of my closest mates and one of the greatest examples of you that has ever walked this earth. And I start thinking of everything that this man of god has achieved in his short but effective life. He truly loved you with all his heart and would have gone to the ends of the world If you asked him to. He was one of your beloved children that did everything that you asked him to not only to the bare minimum but he did every task with all of his heart and all of his soul, he completed each task with excellence. As I stand here and think about his life I am amazed at the legacy he left behind in each and every person that was close to him. Even though he does not walk with me on this earth, I see him in the people he loved most. I see his furious passion in his younger brothers the same passion that lives in me the passion to see your will done on this earth. I see his humor through his best mates the same humor that allowed him to draw many young people to your feet, the same humor that made him the man that anyone could come to and feel joyous around him. I also see his dreams through the many hearts that he discipled the same dreams that are in my heart the same dreams that will see broken nations come to see the love of our loving father. The same dreams that help us get through our everyday lives the same dreams that cannot and will not be silenced by this world. Through this mans life I see a living and breathing legacy that lives beyond his time on this earth, and I am stirred up and I ask my self what will be my legacy, will it be a man who had a lot of potential in god but never stepped out and run with everything god had giving him, or will it be that of a man who walked and talked with the mighty god himself, a man that was so dependent on him that he lived out of his strength and not his own. A man that was willing to get his hands and feet dirty in the work of the lord and rejoicing in every thing that the lord has laid in front of him good or bad. Will I be known as a man of god that served him with all his heart and a man who laid down his life for the will of the almighty god?
What will be the legacy that you leave behind?

Gods heart

If only we could see what Gods see, if only we could feel what His heart feels? If only we stopped looking at our selves, if only we started to feel for others. Then maybe we will be able to see and feel the amazing God that we seek!!

Worship

Tonight I stand amoungst a group of your worshipers and I get deep into you presence knowing that when I'm in your presence I am surrounded by your love and your grace and I know that I can not get harmed cause you hold me so close that when things don't go the right way I know that you will be the first person to embrase me and I know that that embrace is all I need cause when I am embraced by your arms your spirt fills my heart and I see the light throug the darkness and I know that there is hope through the abundance of your love and your grace. I stand as a bare man knowing that i am nothing without the one saviour that lives in me and that if i try to go through the challenges that this world chucks at us, i will fail miserably and then u show me that when i walk with you through the challenges of life that u are always there ready to cathch me and to stop me falling into the ways of this world. With this knowledge of your unfailing love I can walk into any situiation and know that I have the lord jesus Christ on my side and that nothing in this world will be able to stop me from doing the will of god that he has set for me. I humble myself at your feet, you start to reviel to me the plans and the amazing vision that u have set for my life. Then I dig deep into the amazing presence that you have created and I ask you to wreck my life for the plans that u have for me, I ask that you take my selfishness out of my mind and out of my body and that u give me the power to step up to the massive task that u have set out for my race.

The lost

Lord everywhere I go and everywhere I look I see your lost sons and daughters doing the things of this world, hurting themselves and each other not knowing the main reason why they are on this earth. Lord let me be a man that stands on the conviction of his word and make me a man that is known not only as a reader of his word but a doer of his mighty word. Darkness surrounds this whole world like the darkness of the night skys but in that darkness there are little stars that shine bright and are so beatiful that they make the darkness barable! Let me be one of those stars that people look up to the skies and say look at that beatifull star its amazing how much light and beauty a single star can give off and how it can take the focus off the darkness. In the same way i need to be a man who has a bright light and a man that will not hide back into my little world and leave your lost to there destructive paths. I will be a man who will go out of his way to show them the beatiful light of our jesus Christ. I will not be ashamed I will not be timid but I will stand on the foundation that I have built with you and I know that this foundation will be all I need to see the lost come home and to see your mighty arms wrap around there once dead bodys and for you to say to them WELCOME HOME!

gods love

I find myself once again lying next to the grave of Jeremy Wong one of my best friends. And I cry out to you and I say use me like u used the mighty man next to me, make me a man that is totally in love with you. That I may know that were ever this world will take me I will always be a loved son to the almighty god who has paid the ultimate price and who’s love I can never escape. I know that when I have the loving arms of my savior wrapped around me I know that no matter what this world throws at me I am protected by the love of my savior, and through this love I know that I can and I will be more than a conquer in everything that I put my mind to and I know that the same love that u give me must be the same love that must come out of my own heart towards your loved children. That this love must be so unfailing, majestic and beautiful that there is only one explanation for this awesome love and that is because we have our kings love in our hearts and we cant shut it out but we must let it shine through our life’s cause it means so much to us that we cant even explain, this love between a father and a son or daughter can not be broken no matter happens and will always be there to forgive and to hold you up when you cant stand. A love that is so pure that when we as humans get a revelation on what this love means to us, our lives are drastically changed cause of the sheer beauty of it. The love of a savior that a man may be called by god himself to walk through this world and eventually die for each and every one of his lost and hurting sons and daughters. The same love that will pull the son of god through the agonizing pain of dyeing on a cross not for his sins but the sins of this world a love that will pull a man through the pain of being lost and alone not knowing were his father has gone but knowing that there is a love between them that cant be broken a love that is from the almighty god himself. This love that I speak of lives in each and everyone of us through the lords Holy Spirit that dwells in everyone who believes in the father. So let the love of our savior shine through us at all time let this love be the same love that our father above has for us.