This is my life and the reason i do what i do!

This is my life and this is the reason I do what I do.

Let me tell u a bit about myself i'm 20 years old work as a carpenter for a company called Yakka build. My average working week is around 60 hours if not more! Probably living with the best housemates that i could of ever asked for, just around the corner of my amazing church, hillsong. i have been a Christian my whole life but only really got serious with my walk with God about three Years ago. And started to give Him everything. I have a beautiful family consisting of three brothers and two sisters. Both my oldest brother and my oldest sister are married to wonderful spouses and share two amazing kids each. They seriously bring a massive smile to my face! Both these families are in church and following God! My other sister has and will always hold a special place in my heart I love her so much! She is currently not in church but I know that there is a fire that is burning inside her that she can only ignore for so long. I believe for her salvation everyday and will continue to till I see her in the house of God! That leaves the other two brothers ones older and ones younger than me, the older one is the reason that I am the man of God that I am today. I'll get back to him later. My younger bro is a pretty cool mate, although we don't get on the best he knows that I love him. He has slowly walked away from the whole church seen over the past couple of years but he knows God well so it's only time till he comes back to the kingdom of God. lets not forget the main reason that im on this earth, that would be my mum and my dad, no words can describe the feelings that i have for them. both in love with God as much as they are with each other, both amazing parents, they are indescribable and i love them with all my heart. well thats my family as you can see its massive and fun and also challenging at some points but i wouldn't have it any other way.

Growing up was pretty easy, i mean i had a family that loved me, i went to a christian school, had a solid relationship with God and had some great christian mates, so yeah it was easy but that all changed in about year ten. one sunday morning my brother came home from work with tears in his eyes, that day my life was turned around but the decisions that i made that day are the reason that i am who i am. that sunday morning i was shattered with the news that my rdg leader had passed away whilst swimming at the beach. jeremy wong was his name, he was more than just a leader he was more like an older brother to me. at the time he was a uni student and i had left school to purse my career in carpentry. both of us had many days that we weren't doing anything so we always chilled together on our days off. he was the first man that ever believed in me ,outside of my family. he wanted to see Gods full potential released within me and wanted the very best for me. the amount of talks and God encounters that we had in that little toyota was unbelievable, so me and him were very close. so that sunday morning broke my heart. he had drowned at the beach and i remember feeling so angry at myself for not being there on that beach for him when he needed me the most, the anger that i couldn't do anything to bring him back burned at my very soul. i remember siting there weeping my insides yelling at God saying how could you let this happen, i was a wreck in the arms of my mum and dad and my older brother i couldn't even hold my own weight but they held me when i needed them the most. that morning the last thing i wanted to do was to go to church, i was so mad and angry at God that i would off walked away that morning and never looked back, but thats when my mum, dad and brother pretty much carried me to the car. i remember standing up the back of church with tears streaming down my face uncontrollably. that sunday morning right there and then i made a choice , that choice was to give everything to God, as hard as it was i raised my hands and gave him everything. thats when He came down and met me i remember that my tears turned from tears of anger and hurt to tears of love and tears of grace as Gods arms wrapped around my broken body.


life went on it was hard at first feeling confused and lost with were i was ment to be heading in life the only thing that was consistent was church life. after Jeremy's death i guess rdg was a struggle i didn't really get too involved worried that i would get hurt again. a year went on and i was still looking for a job as an apprentice carpenter but nothing was coming up so i guess i was doubting wether carpentry was the right thing to be doing but i stuck at it giving it to God. rdg was going alright, i was eager to be fed more and to grow more in God but wasn't really getting challenged enough compared to before. thats when i was thrown in the deep end by my tribal leader he wanted me to be an rdg leader a year early which was crazy. he had seen the way i handelled jeremys death and he could see the eagerness that i had to grow with God so he too me to the next step. so i accepted the challenge and stepped forth. the first year was hard i had finally got a job and was leading a very small rdg, lets say that i was doing a pretty bad job at leading, not making time for my boys cause of work, struggling to do rdg at all, cause i was to tired from work and all those excuses. as time went on i got better with it all and i was finally starting to get my head around leading young people. i guess life was pretty good.

it wasn't until my brother left for canada that i really decided to take my relationship with God to the next level. what brought that change was something that i wasn't really expecting. my brother had fallen away from God and had started to do the whole party thing over in canada. this broke my heart cause it was the same brother that i had been through so much together with the whole jeremy thing and just the last couple of years at church. he was my mentor and my leader and to see him fall into the hands of the devil so easily broke my heart once again. from that day forward i made a new commitment to God and that was that i will never fall away from his loving arms and that i would be the man of God that would lead my sister and my brothers back into his hands. from that day i dug deep into God in a new whole way i decided that i would be the hands and feet of my God and that i would place my self so deep inside his presence that no one could break the bond that i had with Him. i started to help out and serve with everything i had. God opened doors left right and Centre and i stepped into each one of them knowing that i was in his will ,and through his strength i could do anything. everything in my life showed Jesus and still does, it didn't matter if i was at home, at work or at church the lord was evident in everything i did.

to this day im still believing to see my brothers and sister back in the house of God and believe that it is Gods will for there life. but now i sit here as a 20 year old man that is fully content in who he is, who has so much vision for his life that i can barely contain the excitement of it all. i sit here knowing who i am in God and knowing what i can do through His name. i am sold out for only one thing and that is to see the lost come home. i will follow my God to the ends of the earth and to my death. really im just a boy caught up in the arms of a loving saviour and not afraid to let the world know about it!